Chronic pain & Insomnia.. tonight I had no fight 

3AM swigging morphine from the bottle, to numb the pain to quiet the voices Voices ringing out these voices are so loud, countless noises Chronic pain tension rising  Mind running wild thoughts going crazy Physical battle mental war raging One two ten exhale.. not this again  My worse enemy and my best friend  Insomnia nights … Continue reading Chronic pain & Insomnia.. tonight I had no fight 

To Self Medicate Or Not? Sleepless Nights..

Should I sip this morphine or just lay here in vain  Awake through the night sleeping 9am till midday Is it the pain or just my mind playing tricks playing games Games of cat and mouse chasing thoughts away Back fourth up down, round and round my mind keeps on spinning  Like a hamster on … Continue reading To Self Medicate Or Not? Sleepless Nights..

Chronic Pain.. I’ll say I’m ok

Deafening Silence I wear my pain like a foghorn Somedays my silence kills the room Learning to dance in the rain Learning to fight through the pain Heavy clouds fill my eyes by day Night falls banks burst pillows stain Everyday pain every night pain Across my face you may not see this pain But … Continue reading Chronic Pain.. I’ll say I’m ok

Releasing.. Meltdown preventing 

A pain so insane my core temperature is constantly rising Sometimes I don't even understand how I'm really surviving My pain threshold will deceive you The way I smile to get through The way I keep going will mislead you To drown in self pity is the day I'll rue Chronic pain orthopaedic sufferers I … Continue reading Releasing.. Meltdown preventing