After having five surgeries on the same shoulder over the course of just under 5 years I’ll be honest you start to loose faith, you start to loose belief that there will be an end to the journey. You start seeing brick walls instead of a road ahead. With set back after set back you … Continue reading The fight goes on!!
Sleep evades me still and I don’t know why I meditate, repeat mantras, I try to silence my mind How does a body and mind continue to function without the rest it requires How can I go days with no sleep, be tired but still not sleep when it’s bedtime It makes no sense, at … Continue reading Insomnia
3AM swigging morphine from the bottle, to numb the pain to quiet the voices Voices ringing out these voices are so loud, countless noises Chronic pain tension rising Mind running wild thoughts going crazy Physical battle mental war raging One two ten exhale.. not this again My worse enemy and my best friend Insomnia nights … Continue reading Chronic pain & Insomnia.. tonight I had no fight
Running on an empty tank flat tyres no air Staring my pain in the eye in disbelief like how are you still here Days turn to months I've lost count of the years Reservoirs run dry I'm all out of tears Then I remember the power I hold, the strength I have within Some days … Continue reading Not another pain poem!
Should I sip this morphine or just lay here in vain Awake through the night sleeping 9am till midday Is it the pain or just my mind playing tricks playing games Games of cat and mouse chasing thoughts away Back fourth up down, round and round my mind keeps on spinning Like a hamster on … Continue reading To Self Medicate Or Not? Sleepless Nights..