Chronic pain & Insomnia.. tonight I had no fight 

3AM swigging morphine from the bottle, to numb the pain to quiet the voices Voices ringing out these voices are so loud, countless noises Chronic pain tension rising  Mind running wild thoughts going crazy Physical battle mental war raging One two ten exhale.. not this again  My worse enemy and my best friend  Insomnia nights … Continue reading Chronic pain & Insomnia.. tonight I had no fight 

To Self Medicate Or Not? Sleepless Nights..

Should I sip this morphine or just lay here in vain  Awake through the night sleeping 9am till midday Is it the pain or just my mind playing tricks playing games Games of cat and mouse chasing thoughts away Back fourth up down, round and round my mind keeps on spinning  Like a hamster on … Continue reading To Self Medicate Or Not? Sleepless Nights..